Passion

This life I lead at times in vain 
One day to the next,always full of pain. 
 
Groping and searching for something to hold. 
One minute its this the next minute its old. 
 
Wanting width and depth and height 
but constantly failing because of the fright 
 
Wanting the love and closeness of another, 
but constantly running from all of that clutter 
 
I never said I loved you, how'd that get in your head? 
I feel the need to tell you, and you fill up with dread 
 
Someday his heart will melt is what you say you Pray 
I say this ice is solid and don’t think it will sway. 
 
I wish you'd understand, I am what I am! 
Stop with all your whining cause I don’t give a damn! 
 
It’s not that I don’t love you its only that I’m scared 
Scared to let you see the misery and fear. 
 
This life of mine is ruined and someday you will see 
that I was right in saying..................... You're better off without me..............