To be awakened

Too all those friends of mine, who thought that, 'Dino he is so and so person', I have this to say. For one, you might think I'm this likeable person, will you still think that way whence I tell you the dark things that dwells in my mind. but, but, but................ When I decide, to be the persone I have idolised to be, as a boy growing up in unheard of circumstances (that is beside you knowing) which is a good one, Then I would've awakened from this 'illusion-istic' reality... and be this likeable person you all want.