To Disappear Completey

To Disappear Completely I squeezed shut my eyelids Within the wall of clinking glasses And murmuring reverent voices Of blackened figures; I wished to disappear From painful weeping far-off siblings And hardened harsh pulsating airwaves Cruel upon our chests; But I remained alone Surrounded by their rustling black suits And smudges close to hanging black veils Shielding bright ages; I could not leave her then, Despite the soulless breathless visions And loss of screaming irate urges To grasp at her hands; I saw her at my side Wrapped tightly in our velvet bed sheets And she drew them around my frail arms, Just like the old days.