To have or not to have

I have a long road to travel before I can learn who I am Many bridges to cross, to get to where i'm going I have much to learn, before I can teach Learning to practice that which I preach I have so much to say, yet i cant find the words My confusion takes the sound before I make it I have answers to questions that others may ask Yet i dont have the wisdom to answer my own I have all the time that the world can give Still I seem to come late, in the life that I live I have seen much more that what I should But a blind man still see's what I didnt I have endless potential to be greater than I am My success is hampered only by my inferiority I have known myself, but i somehow forgot I could stand in front of me and I wouldn't know I have followers who trust that I lead the correct I dont know where I lead them, yet i demand respect I have knowingly committed crimes that were never seen Today I am the victim of a guilty conscience I have nothing to give to those who need I dont have enough to satisfy my greed I have given my heart, to have it held with care Yet ive shattered those that were given to me I have the power to speak my mind Fear of consequence tells me not to I have my limit, like everyone else I draw my lines and re-draw them I have my opinion on every topic Changing it to suit the arguement I have spoken what i wanted to say I know you heard me, but did you listen?