trapped

Ever lasting emptiness pulsing through my veins. Staring at a cold reflection and only seeing what little remains. Torn between a fake smile or a heart felt tear. Lost between living a lie or becoming my biggest fear. The walls are closing in suppressing all my dreams. What if the bad is as frightening as is seems? Shallow breath's keep a stale heart beating. The numbness is victorious and its my personality its defeating. Icy emotions becomes my only fascination Cut the cord from the world and let that be my self mutilation. Laughing with agony as I stiffly embrace this damaged existence. I can ruin the rest of my life I don’t need your assistance. Darkness sets in and I begin to sooth down with ease. As I contemplate lifelessness the pressure turns into a cool breeze. Never to hurt, never to wake. Is that my calling? Is that my fate? I will never know the meaning of a silent pain. Your voice and those images will always remain. Yet here I sit, still contemplating and hurting yet somehow alive. No matter if I know the easy ending I convince my thoughts to survive