Tumbling thoughts

I walk a road unknown to me, with many paths and many turns, "which way to go?" I ask myself, its hard to choose which one is right. My mind is racing, my feet have stopped, I try to move but I cannot, a sweat ensues as I tussle my thoughts, pulled to the left and then to the right. My head starts to spin, my memory unravels, i'm sent into a craze as I start to babble, I shake my head and for reasons unknown, I fall to the floor and begin to groan. As my eyes roll back I start to sleep, I know whats coming but I have no control, I feel like i'm floating and then with a thud, my head hits the concrete and there is the blood. I wake then I'm gone "how long has it been?" "did anyone see me? Is this just a dream?" my head starts to beat as though drums are inside it, I open my eyes but my vision is blurred. Voices seem echoed and then as I wake, I see doctors and nurses and realise i'm safe, "how long was I out for?" my mind is blank, till I see my body looking cold and opaque, Dear god i'm dead? then I turn to see this golden, shinning down on me.