turning a leaf

turning a leaf. summer days, a shimmering haze, life is good again, days of a carefree child, a little wild, every now and then. chilling out, catching some rays, the tension has all gone away. i feel like i could walk the world, all in a single day. the fighting years are all finished now, they're all gone and done, all i want to do is lay on the grass, and surrender to the sun. happy days are here again, no more time to waste in jail, there's still the ones who try to wind me up, but nowadays they fail. i don't rise to their challenges, not up for that anymore, it's taken me all my long life, but now i know the score. a simple smile baffles their heads, they haven't got a clue, they walk away confused, they don't know what to make of you. the drugs have all worn off, reality slaps me round the head, if i make the mistake of going back, chances are i'll be dead. sorry is a word i had better get used to saying, for all the bad things that i've done, it's time to start paying. plenty of time to make amends, but i've got to make a start, don't try to do it falsely, you have to mean it from the heart. it'll be hard to change my criminal ways, overnight, i know, if i want to have a chance of life, i've got to have a go. enough time has been wasted, that i'll never have again, so what?, i'll feel better having tried to change, than i would if i did not. there's no guarantee of success, you got to keep on trying, no more fighting or stealing, and definitely no more lying. eventually i'll get there, just another face in town, life is not a picnic, but don't let it get you down.