Twenty

once again I start to fall, into the heart of all that's wrong. how can I believe this won't last long, waiting for a solution to come along. It's not the way I pictured life, twenty years have passed me by. I can't decide on a reason why, things ended up falling apart inside. I am my own worst enemy it seems, sabotaging everything that's good, doing things I never thought I could. when in the beginning I thought I understood. I know I don't have all the answers, I feel that I lack the courage I need, and in the end, I know I won't succeed. In the end, this is the life I lead. Brit Sebastien