Unresolved Feelings

i love you. i need you. please dont leave me. dont be mad or dissapointed. i'll try, i really will. but i cannot take you being gone. no matter what i promised. so please dont make me do this alone. i'm sorry i'll attempt to give it up for you. but if things get worse before they get better, then this will be harder than i thought. i dont know what to tell you. or anyone, actually. because you were the only one i could ever talk to. and i honestly dont know how i'll live without you. you know me so well. and i cant go on without you. i said i wouldnt HURT for you. and i wont be able to lie to you. but i never said i wouldnt cry for you. and i now i just feel even more at fault because your only going to be more appauled about the tears. im sorry. im sorry. this isnt working for me at all. i'll just wait a little longer before i go do what i said i wouldnt. i'll try to make it my last time, though. for you. DONT CRY. Thats not what i wanted at all. jesus. nothing is going right. im sorry. oh no. i am so sorry. i had to do it. like i said, you know me to well. i dont want to tell you i did. i never want to talk about it again. EVER. with anyone. im anxious to know what your going to say.... i love you. i need you.