Unsure

The hope for a reevaluation of the mind The hope of a soul to find Something better than past mistakes Something longer lasting than heartbreaks Being unsure of the future, not knowing what’s happening now Not being sure what a closed up heart will allow Drifting through with one hand ready to shut out everything Hoping for something much more than a fling Knowledge unsurpassed knowledge taken to heart Knowledge so deep it will never part Judgment of note leaves an open wound hurting Truthful expression tells of the pain and yearning Unknown experiences are surprising I seem to be slowly realizing My thoughts again filled with fear and doubt It seems too stupid to talk about Yet clear as a bell ringing in my ear Don’t wanna be left again alone and in tears What a task to undertake To discern whether it’s fake So many times been led astray Please believe me when I say It might take a while to get to know me for me On the run from being open constantly My thoughts overwhelmed just don’t wanna get hurt again I know the answer cant face it just don’t wanna spend My whole life hiding under the masque I’ve put on myself My true face hidden from everyone else It scares me how you take one look and my secrets are revealed It’s like you know and understand how I feel A certain security It’s really unlike me Here I am afraid of what the future holds for me What happens for the present remains a mystery All I know is for now I considering this chance I’ve already given my second glance