Wants and not Needs

what I want to say is something completely dissimilar more than you're willing to hear your willing to receive what I'm ready to give, and yet, this place we find ourselves is no different than some bazillion times before this day, this moment this space ... it's so astounding to finally meet another who gets me, this rare synergy full of anything conceivable walking in wonder was my reality every time we met every time we connected and yet, it was me who hesitated too long, pulled back stepped down and slithered away like the fool I can be ran to the corner where I thought I was safe believed I could wait and wait, I did to my own chagrin as I stand here, alone my choice my choosing writing these words, great swelling words full of melodramatics, safe in the arms of my shadow unscathed, away from the all remnants of misdirected blame, at least that's what I tell myself that's what I try to believe …