Wastelands Of The Forgotten

Lonely in this parking lot I let it slip away, This cigarette is burning slow with no taste, Like it she is smoking hot, But so out of reach, Excuse me can I have your attention, Lost without pretenses, Spent without relevance, Everyday I'm striving for perfection, I receive little transgression, Why is this my obsession, Wordplays and sounds of guitar, Its just passion turned fashion, Where is the compassion? Try to find the secret door, To open up and find whats in store, But It's the line I've yet to cross, I guess I'm a no one and I should except the facts, Walking with my possesions on railroad tracks, Loneliness has always been my cross to bear, But I'm beginning to not even care, Maybe I'm just paranoid, And I still have time to walk, But somehow I see myself crippled, No stepping stones, Just many wrongs, I'm stuck in a backwards marathon, Press forward to reverse, This is my rotation, I'm counter clockwise, I'm too smart for my own good, But I'm too stupid to use it, Its something I can't control, I sleep so I can dream, My dreams seem so real but so fake, Like makeup thats plastered, I'm just a showcase of a made up face, Just a dreamer sailing in my own seas, I'm paper not plastic, Paper bagged breathe your life into me, Maybe then I can calm the ocean, Instead of drowning in indignation, I don't want to think about it, I just want to drink about it, I'm a kindergartner put me in time out, Out of sight and out of mind, I'll walk these salt washed beaches, And see what shells have the sound of ocean currents, Things in my world are random, So wrap me up in sand, Bury me beneath the waves, I'll blame it on the weather, I'm cold in the summer, My own darkness leaves me hating everyone, Wake me up into my dreams, Let me leave this world, Of broken promises and rejection, Everyones money hungry and craves attention, I don't need your thoughts or words, I have my own issues you can't contain, I'll blow the candles to my own birthday wishes, I don't need your presents or gifts, Wish upon this fire, Take me to an island and leave me to my voice, I'll take my own words into account, Life will continue to crash just like this water, I can speak my mind in this silence, Take my picture off the wall and paint it black, Take the words I spoke and erase them from your mouth, You will never be like me, We're so different, I'll never see you in the spotlight you think your in, And without a regret I can see you for how you are, The nothingness I wanted to be, Is who you are for the world to see, Never think your better then this tear stained sonnet, Because I will overcome your discretion, And fly on the wings of the angels, To never ending horizons, Over vast amounts of blue, Just like the blues I have inside of me, There beginning to turn red but I don't need this anger, I forgive myself for loving you, So I'll break through, Break this wall to wash away, In the summers setting sun, Like shakespeare I long for winters of discontent, So make it snow so I can feel whole again, I've tucked away my rage, And locked the cage, I can sustain my heat, With the wishes of cold, Don't ask for my heart, Its broken like snowflakes, Not a piece is the same, So failure is the conclusion, I don't need your protrusion, Leave me to my privacy, Just remember when you think of me, To slit your throat because you did when you lost me, I don't care what your thoughts will be, Because we don't belong together, I just want to feel better, But your blood is helping to soak up these tears...