Watching you tonight

6pm draws near You’re still not here You should be here by now Undressing As I stare into your window Caressing you with my eyes Filling my empty mind with my own pathetic lies I picture us together smiling Holding hands Making plans But its not true I know its all a lie I cant imagine a life without you When I do I want to die I could attempt to talk to you Make the fantasy of me and you Finally come true I can hear you breaking my heart in my head Again I’m standing here wishing I were dead You finally pull up in your car I stay quiet so as not to make you scared I watch you for a while Once again filling my appetite But only for tonight