What It Could Have Been

What It Could Have Been There is something inside That makes me sad I think of what I had And it stings my pride. The memories I forgot Are only locked in a safe I have tried to erase The penultimate thought. But nothing is ever let go When it affected your mind So looking behind Will only make reality so. I dreamed a dream And I felt the tears succeed With my heart I plead Things aren’t what they seem. It’s all about you And what I think I lost I sit here, putty-soft Trying to figure what to do. It is like a game Except I never can win I dream of the sin That would change my name. That would change my body But now I sit alone Only the devil would condone What you wanted from me. And I was so willing to give But what held me back And what kept me on track Was my desire to live. So this feeling of regret Is now eating at my soul And the ultimate goal Is to forgive and forget. So you have quickly moved on But I understand I have not You’ve become that stumbling block That had made me so forlorn. And I wish this was easy And I wish I was wrong It is going to take a long Time for me to see That I am very strong And you were not the one Like the rising of the sun It is time to move on… Yet……… There is something inside That makes me sad I think of what I had And it stings my pride.... I think I loved you.