when all is lost

do i open my eyes to see- or should i keep them closed so i can pretend these things shouldn't be--- shouldn't be where- anywhere but here- a book filled with pages- scriptures filled with fear- biblical terms- my life is in genesis- meaning it's just beginning- seeming it's just so fitting- an exodus otherwise knows as my demise- a snake- a demon- it's all the same in mine eyes- the way time flies- i really don't like apples- but i'm trapped in the devil's stare- sending a warning flare- please come and save me~ PLEASE SAVE ME SOON- like a quarter cresent of a moon dissapears behind clouds- untill the simple fact of not wanting to hear truth drowns the sound- no longer drilled into the ground~ gravity does not apply- because the shit that i'm lifted on puts me one up on the sky- i'll never die- cus my soul will live peacefully- stuck between the pages~ like mathew mark i'm making history- with keystrokes and spacebars- for all i know these sentences can help you imagine mars- take you someplace id rather not be- as long as your safe with you~ be happpy you aren't me- be happy you aren't me- i'd be happy if i couldn't see- i'd be happy if i couldn't hear- i'd be happy if i could hold you near- but the space between us- are like stars between the skies- they never seem to touch~ but they're always near- and dear to the eyes~ i forget the future to dwell on your lies- like ants under microscopes my insides seem on fire- i'm in dire and desperate need to forget the words we speak- i can't do this anymore- i wanna give up- give death the final score- this is my final call for help- i can't hold my heart open anymore-